Wasting Time

I have no obligations today.

I had none yesterday.....or the day before that.

I have had no schedule, no pressing things to do.....other than shower, and sometimes I feel like that is also optional (or could happen @ 3 in the afternoon).

You may not remember but, lack of structure is not a good place for me.

I have spent TOO MUCH TIME on the Internet, discovering new blogs, looking up home repair stuff and just not being a productive person in society.

But, in other news.....I've had plenty of time to take pictures of what I've been eating!


.....because I know you are so interested.

This was my lunch for today! Mixed greens from our CSA-which, next time we get it I'll take a picture of all the beautiful veggies we get from them,-craisins, sunflower seeds and a lemon vinaigrette I made a couple of days ago. Also, left over coffee from this morning.

Sooo Good and refreshing! The greens are slightly bitter, the vinaigrette is tart, the craisins slightly sweet and the seeds add a great amount of crunch. Yum! It did not pair well w/the coffee....which is french pressed espresso from Costco but, I just can't let it go to waste.

I
Love
COFFEE

oh and food.

 I also love food.

just in case you thought I survived on just coffee no, there is a healthy dose of sugar and butter in my diet too!

*Jenny G

Free Time

I (Jenny) have had a lot of free time since we've been here in Boise. And it's been difficult.
Which, is weird.
Really-free time = difficult?
What does that mean.....come on Jenny....I can't get enough free time.
I KNOW! I mean, that is how I felt when I was working 40 hrs a week and trying to clean my constantly cluttered little apartment and you know.....have fun and enjoy the life God gave me. I felt like I couldn't have enough time to do all the things I wanted to do and learn and explore and read and etc.
So now here I am in Boise and I can make anything of my day and um....I don't.
I think it's mostly a lack of motivation.
I need structure.
I need a schedule.
I need expectations.
Defined expectations, not just 'I want to get stuff done today' because, depending on my mood, that might mean: painting the house, paying bills, grocery shopping, plant a garden, learn how to sew a prom dress, make a pot roast and have a lovely dinner with my husband while we discuss world politics and the impression it has on the church because I just read a book that made me think....all while making money with the 'idea' of on online business that's been bumping around in my head.

right.
And then I feel like not only have I let myself down, I've let everyone around me down. Crazy-yes. Because, who's expectations are those? I know I can't DO all those things....no one is telling me that I need to do these things to be productive. Really, as long as I shower my husband is happy.
I need different expectations.

Expectations that are realistic are more like: work on a scarf for my mother in law, paint my nails, go for a hike, and make a pot roast.

The scarf I made for my mother in law AND my homemade manicure

So I need to make a list....of REAL LIFE things I can do in 10 hours.
For structure, for sanity....I need a list.
Amen.

*Jenny